Confession Time

So a few months ago I got an email about an internship opportunity in Utah. The internship was well paying and full-time. Being my curious self, I read all the details and it sounded interesting to me, so I applied. (I was hopeful that Andrew would get an internship in Utah this summer) I didn't really think that it would go anywhere and was surprised when I heard back from the company shortly after applying. They set up an interview with me via skype. (Weirdest interview ever) I decided to interview, even though I was planning on doing the spring semester at school. 

After talking with a friend who interviewed with the same company, I lost hope that I would be hired. My friend was actually interviewed by the head of the company, and I was interviewed by some random guy filling in. I felt like the interview wasn't personal at all and I wasn't asked one thing about myself. The interview was very brief (15 minutes tops) and I mostly just had to respond to hypothetical situations. The guy who interviewed me didn't even know for sure when I would hear back.

Just this past week, I got an email that said they enjoyed interviewing me. I was for sure expecting a rejection email, but was pleasantly surprised that they offered me the internship and gave me a week to respond with my answer. Now comes the hard part.

I am terrible at making decisions and dread making them. This decision has been a really tough one for me. First of all, I don't even need an internship to graduate, Andrew does, so why would I take it? Secondly, Spring semester starts in April and I was planning on enrolling in my last official semester before student teaching. I'm so close and why would I put off school for something I don't even need?

Meanwhile, throughout these past few months, Andrew has been applying to various internships all over the country. It has been a discouraging process and he hasn't hear back from any of the places he applied to. He is the one that needs the internship and in order to graduate next April really needs an internship this Spring/Summer.

The day I was offered the internship in Utah, my Mom told me she spoke with someone in our ward about the fact that Andrew was searching for an internship. Her husband happens to work in the same field and within minutes, Andrew emailed his resume to him. Andrew is interviewing for an internship tomorrow in Utah with this guy from my ward! What a blessing.

This is where the tough part comes. I had to respond back about my internship without knowing if Andrew for sure has the internship. I responded this morning with a yes, relying on faith. (We have fasted and prayed a lot about the situation) Whatever is supposed to happen will.

There are lots of decisions to be made and lots of stress that needs to be resolved, but I am learning to be patient. We need to sell our housing contract, but I don't want to try to until we know for sure that Andrew has the internship. I don't think selling it will be easy either because 30 other couples in our ward are moving in April and trying to sell their contracts as well. I also need to defer from school. Registration for spring semester happened to be this week and I didn't know whether or not to register. I ended up not registering.

I'm looking forward to this weekend and am excited for Andrew. It would be so fun to live in Utah this summer and to be so close to family. My brother is moving to Seattle in June and I want to spend as much time with him as possible. I have never been one that ever planned on moving back in with the parentals after being married, but because it's only for a few months it is the best option. We will be able to save a lot of money this summer. Also, even though I won't be going to school in the Spring, I will still graduate at the same time as Andrew, so we won't be waiting around in Rexburg for me to finish school. 

It's hard not knowing what the future holds, but I"m confident that a Heavenly being is watching out for Andrew and I. We are so blessed.